Havent updated in a while....i put this in my other xanga but i meant it for this xanga.....[||o8.1o.o4||]
which one am i feeling? or am i feeling neither? two lovers truly in love, yet one of them crashes and looses her memories she falls in love with another has a child but he dies she goes to a place in korea with her child so close they are because he finds her child but she lied because she showed a picture that was not her mother and it ends......true love does have an ending.. never did she remember who he was...so close but no... a picture of her flies on the window but at a blink of an eye shes gone from him forever..so i guess this means true love does have an ending they found each other but it was lost they came back but she was married to his best friend and now whoever said it wasnt meant to be the 1st time if they left but came back so it was meant to be it really isnt because even tho they come back if it wasnt meant to be yours even if it came back something would cause you to loose it again no matter how much you loved and cared for it not wanting it to go it would still be gone from you one day... -sigh- i hate that i hate that i HATE THAT!!!!!!!!!! i feel that it is so sad but not a teardrop fell from my eyes... do i have no feelings? i wish i can really answer that since i know about that why should i care to love anyone? i dont even love myself, how can i love another if loving myself was a problem? trust, love, care,happiness i dont think i can ever give these to anyone... as depressing as it may be to me right now i dont feel anything not sorrow, not happiness, not depression is it true that i have no feelings at all... haha...i d k i really dont know...... i think i feel that my heart is dropping dropping so hard into the ground that its past that point n i feel as if it'll never come back.......
LoOkiNg BaCk aS iF SuMthing WaS tHeRe a LoNg TiMe agO....Was iT JuSz aN iMaGiNatiOn oR a dEsiReD dReaM...sHo MaNy qUestiOnz LeFt uNaNsWeReD iN tHe wOrLd...sHo MaNy ThiNgz LeFt WiFoUt eXpLaNatiOn...wEn wiLL iT eNd? LoOkiNg BaCk iNtO tHe PaSt aNd ThiNkiNg mOre aBoUt tHe FuTuRe...
a SmiLe...d0eS iT eXpReSs FeELiNgz? wHat iS a SmiLe wEn tHeRez nO HaPpiNeSs BeHiNd iT? iS iT FaKe oR JuSt a MaSk iN DiSguiSe? y iS tHeRe sHo MuSh iN tHe WoRLd? shO mUcH FoR uS To thINk? iF ThErE WeRe NO guYZ In ThE wOrlD No LoVe nO HaTe nO gReEd nO GaMez...WoULd DySz StiLL bE a WoRLd? sHo MuSh CaN bE Sa3d y3t sHo MuSh iSh LeFT wyFf a DoUbt...Wat iS tRu3 iN LyFe n Wat iSh FaKe..dO w3 kNo? WiLL w3 kNo? qUeStiOnz aSkEd BuH NeVeR GiVeN aN aNswEr...LyFez left with so maNy uNaNsw3r3d qUeStiOnz......
wHy iS tHeRe SaDn3Ss aNd HaPpiNeSs iN tHe WoRLd? iV tHeRe iS SaDnEsS wHy sHoULd dEr bE HaPPiNeSs? iV tHeRe iS HaPPiNeSs wHy sHoULd dEr bE SaDn3Ss iN tHe WoRLd? WoULdnT iT bE tHe EaSiEst fEr LyFe iB wE aLL JuSt HaD HaPPiNeSs WyFoUt SaDn3sS eVeR NeAr uS? iF oNLy...tHeRe WaS SuCh DyNgs tOoH TuRn tHe WoRLd sHo gReaT fOr eVeRy1 aNd iV eVery1 JuSt ThOuGht aBouT tHe SaMe ThiNgz aNd HavEn PayCe iN DySz WoRLd...iT'D be a MuCh BeTTa WoRLd DeN iT iSh nOw...
Love....such a powerful word...such words cannot be taken back if said to the wrong person..so you should always show your love towards the ones you love before its too late to do so...
Is there such thing in the world tho? if you were hurt so many times could you love again and be hurt once more?if a wound is opened and u trust another it'll open again but this time it wont heal.....
¤^^that date is wrong! i updated thats y itz actually thursday, o3.i8.o4¤
¤hmmm...being philophobic...is it a good thing? i guess it is....if everyone in the world was philophobic...i guess there wouldn't be so many hurt in everyone's heart...hurt...is it a feeling that causes hurt or a feeling that causes pain? both is correct, but i guess everyone tries to avoid being hurt even tho they kno that in the end...the pain of hurt will still come...fear of being hurt fear of being loved and loving others...so many fears in the world, yet so little love without hurt...¤
¤Love had it's realness when people fall in love, but what it really does is hurt people... Luv...that word is unexpainable, becuzz itz a feeling we express fer sum1 wen we feel it, but wen it cumx bax it hurts more than any1 can handle...¤
Darkness is real until someone comes rescue you, but isn't lyfe full of darkn3ss? theres nothing we can do to take this darkness away, becuzz it alwaise cumz bax to us one day....
Name:ÁøÁÖ Country:United States State:Massachusetts Birthday:12/30/1990 Gender:Female
Interests:love anime and manga (even though that's not a hobby, haha) i love to draw, sleep, and my other hobby is eating my favorite food kim-bap haha and i absolutely love K-pop!!! (no offense to the hmong artists, like white shadow) I love Shin Hwa, BoA, Lee Jung Hyun, Funny, Baby Vox, Dana, DJ Doc, Jadu, Kim Hyun Jung, Koyote, NRG, SES, SM Town, Sugar, Cha Tae Hyun, and many others but i don't think u really want to know... haha
Expertise:I'm really good at drawin' anime and i absolutely love to read manga. i think it's better than the anime cuz u know the original story and it's alot cheaper to buy a whole volume than to buy 3 DVDs to get the whole volume of that book...(total randomness) AND imma just an absolute klutz when in school w/ friends and stuff...
anyways yesterday wuz so funny cuz it wuz around 10-ish and my parents came out and started yelling at me for staying up so late and they actually thought i had school tomorrow... parents can be so dumb at times.....
decided to change the layout to the pucca 1 that was on the parfum site... still working on the other layout but i just can't get it exactly right so just wait...
wHy iS tHeRe SaDn3Ss aNd HaPpiNeSs iN tHe WoRLd? iV tHeRe iS SaDnEsS wHy sHoULd dEr bE HaPPiNeSs? iV tHeRe iS HaPPiNeSs wHy sHoULd dEr bE SaDn3Ss iN tHe WoRLd? WoULdnT iT bE tHe EaSiEst fEr LyFe iB wE aLL JuSt HaD HaPPiNeSs WyFoUt SaDn3sS eVeR NeAr uS? iF oNLy...tHeRe WaS SuCh DyNgs tOoH TuRn tHe WoRLd sHo gReaT fOr eVeRy1 aNd iV eVery1 JuSt ThOuGht aBouT tHe SaMe ThiNgz aNd HavEn PayCe iN DySz WoRLd...iT'D be a MuCh BeTTa WoRLd DeN iT iSh nOw... 
Love....such a powerful word...such words cannot be taken back if said to the wrong person..so you should always show your love towards the ones you love before its too late to do so...
Is there such thing in the world tho? if you were hurt so many times could you love again and be hurt once more?if a wound is opened and u trust another it'll open again but this time it wont heal.....
¤hmmm...being philophobic...is it a good thing? i guess it is....if everyone in the world was philophobic...i guess there wouldn't be so many hurt in everyone's heart...hurt...is it a feeling that causes hurt or a feeling that causes pain? both is correct, but i guess everyone tries to avoid being hurt even tho they kno that in the end...the pain of hurt will still come...fear of being hurt fear of being loved and loving others...so many fears in the world, yet so little love without hurt...¤
¤Love had it's realness when people fall in love, but what it really does is hurt people... Luv...that word is unexpainable, becuzz itz a feeling we express fer sum1 wen we feel it, but wen it cumx bax it hurts more than any1 can handle...¤
Darkness is real until someone comes rescue you, but isn't lyfe full of darkn3ss? theres nothing we can do to take this darkness away, becuzz it alwaise cumz bax to us one day....
